Dream?

Wanted to make a short post here but something caught my eye on my blogger front page. "Top traffic sources" I clicked on a link and it led me to read on for a few more minutes than expected. You seem to have a lot to say... Why don't you share it with us? Aren't we your best friends that are even like siblings? I treat you like a younger sibling too. Just like the rest. I hope you'll open up to us soon.

We are now growing up and we are realizing that we are moving further from our dreams. It seems that we are now only trying to get a good cert and then get a good job. The once high and beautiful dreams seems to be swept aside... I'm trying my best to bring them back and continue my path towards them, but it seems reality needs me more. I need to stay up the game and survive. My dream... Can it wait? I'm not getting any younger, time seems to be running out... As this dream of mine.. People usually start at my age or even younger... Shit, what am I to do... And suddenly I realized I've came up with another goal in life, it's so much simpler than my previous goal. I realized maybe I just need this kind of small happiness, to experience true love and have a happy family. Is that all I need? I was always ambitious. I used to cry at night thinking that my dream would not be fulfilled. My close friends all know that, sometimes I cry to them at night, although they can't do anything, they listen to me and tell me that if I work hard enough I will be able to achieve it. I think I was once told that maybe I did not need that high dream, and that I should settle for something more practical. I think someone once told me that, I think my mom did too. But fuck it, I was younger and I had a long way to go. I believed in myself. But where the hell am I now? What am I doing now? Maybe? Maybe we can settle for that small dream first...

When my mom ask me, and my answer ... "I don't even have a guy I like"