Memories

当回忆流过，要让它只有画面没有痛觉

If only I can have my memories playback with only the images and without the hurtful feelings. I think about the past too much. In fact, I think about it everyday. I always get this feeling near my heart area whenever I think of those happy happy memories. Beautiful, happy, simple memories. Things were simpler in the past, happiness was simple as that. There weren't as many people in my past than now. I didn't know much people back then, I know a lot of people now. I prefer the past, I don't need to know so many people. In the past, I only knew of my own group of close friends and a few people around us. If you told me gossip of someone else, I most likely would not know who the person is.

Things are different now. More people in my life, some left and some entered my life... I'm so grateful for these few people who have always been in my life. Six people to be exact. We've really been through a lot... lotslotslots. The things we did, the fun we had, nobody will understand it. Although we tried to continue doing those stuff we love, we can't seem to do it as frequently. But those happy times will always be in our memories, I sure won't forget those times.

I shan't dig up photos of the past. As we've grown and we're in this critical year and hectic schedule of ours, I've slowly stopped missing the past so much. I admit, last year, every single day, I missed our past: 2010. I would always think of it and miss it, and think of how much fun we had, all the happiness and simplicity... Things changed and I know, I should be adapting to these changes now. But I seem to be a person that always live in the past... But now, I've realised I've stopped missing the past so much. Yes, the past was so beautiful and perfect, unlike now where we have so many datelines to meet and quite a lot of worries. Managed to find happiness in this mess. I'm proud of this. Proud that I've tried to stop living in the past. I've stopped tearing from all those.

I think no one lives in the past as much as I do