This blog is starting to be like my little diary, a very different kind of diary because i don't blog stuff about my life like specific events but rather just some of my thoughts & feelings. FYI, i don't write in a diary or journal at all... The last time i did was when i was really young. I still kept it and tried to continue writing but i was just too lazy. I think typing is faster for me, and it's neater cos my handwriting is very merry and ugly... if you know me i'm not lying it's true. Lots of my teachers like to say that if they cover my name in my worksheet & showed it a to a random person and told them that it is a boy's work, they would believe it T_T I've been trying to improve my handwriting but it never stays for long. #piginstinct
Countdown yesterday. We talked about our future and our plans...talked about the right & wrong, the past... talked about our problems and all. Sometimes we have to learn to just go through whatever shit that comes to us. Don't have to care about your feelings for a while and just forget the world, ignore all the haters. Cry, and then wipe your tears and climb back up. Ever since i entered the shit school, life has been like that for me, it always has been.
I can never feel the inferiority when people score better than me, cos i'm always the one scoring lower. Sometimes we also have to get used to the shit in life. And i really mean it cos i feel nothing towards that inferiority anymore. I just let it be. If i wanna do it i can. Even if i work hard and it doesn't pay off i'll still give myself a pat on my back!
I think that whole paragraph didn't make much sense, but that's just kinda what's in my head i guess.
So the Chinese new year is coming up soon! Happy dragon new year to you guys soon too!
Have a happy new year! :)
