fml forever T_T

 Sorry i haven't have had the time to blog.... And then when i finally do(actually i'm supposed to be studying for my common tests and piano exam) it's a venting post..... Which is one of the posts i've really had so much emotions while typing(when i get emotional/agitated i type very fast) You may not want to read my vents and just look at the photos instead lol

I miss my long hair!!!! T_____T

Fml forever why did i even listen to my mom and agree to cutting my hair and its like 5-8 cm shorter which i think will take a whole fucking year to grow back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sorry about the vulgarities but..... I'm just fucking sad and angry at the same time. But more sad than angry....

Its like when i comb my hair, wash my hair, run my fingers through my hair, or just put my hair behind my back and stuff i feel weird and when i look into the mirror i think i look like an idiot with medium length hair. Which is not very long and not very short. I think i look most .....-a word between ugly and idiotic- like that.

And and and when i finally had time to study last night i touched my hair and then i just started to get moody and didn't really study at all and just sat there and cry -_- Which i know is stupid but, it will take like a whole year(at least, i think) to grow back do you even know!!!!!! And i say a year because the second last photo is in november last year and it is LONGER THAN MY CURRENT HAIR LENGTH.

Actually i don't really care about my hair length but then i thought about how long it took to grow to this length, and that it is neither long nor short..... And that how i really wanted long long hair ever since i was a little girl.... And and and.... arghhh..... And the only way is hair extensions but i hate that because i only like real long hair on my head(i don't know why it just makes me feel good about myself that its real, and long, which it isn't now!!!)

And i know it isn't the length that counts its how it looks.... But... If i wanted to cut my hair short i would have changed my hairstyle and stuff i just look like some #$%^&*(*&^%$#@@#$%^ now. But there really isn't a solution as of the moment so i think i'll just make do with crying every time i wash my hair and comb it. And make myself feel better by looking at all the photos i have with my long hair(remind me when my hair is longer i must take more full length photos) .... and then miss my long hair all over again.... Z fml.

Or maybe i shall change my hairstyle to fit medium(argh T_T) length hair.